| amicus curiae |
[May. 15th, 2007|04:30 am] |
i need to study for political science.
but either after that or tomorrow, im going to rant about addiction.
youre excited right? yeah i thought so. fuck you. |
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| hi please stab me in the gut :) |
[May. 14th, 2007|08:48 pm] |
i thought i was doing better but when i went on the scale this morning i learned otherwise. im not going to say what it said. i ate like a beast yesterday though so i understand. me erin and joe went to get ice cream. i had way too much and get home too late to purge it out. THEN i dont know WHAT the FUCK i was thinking but i made tuna fish while i was watching party monster and ended up falling asleep riiiight after i ate. however, i got fiber pills today so i hope that helps. i guess im going to have to re-adjust my goal for this weekend. i mean i have my period so maybe thats a contributing factor but i feel like thats such a lame excuse. worked out a lot today. felt exhausted and tired and just shitty all day. now i look like crap but i have to get all good-looking cuz im going to the movies.
counseling really bugged me out tonight. usually we just talk about stupid things, mostly about the legalities of our problems but today they were all telling stories about when they were on things. it made me really thankful that ive never tried certain things and curious to try others, but regardless the talk of drugs always sparks my anxiety for whatever reason so im sitting there, light-headed from not eating, sweating my ass off, jittery, just wanted to get out of there. seriously, going there has fucked me up more than i was beforehand.
ugh i have to go do shit. ill finish this later >. |
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[May. 7th, 2007|01:47 am] |
so i calculated that if i manually masturbate like 6 times a day, i should be able to lose the weight that i gained from binging over the weekend by this upcoming weekend (along with my usual dietary habbits).
i had absolutely no desire to eat the last 3 weeks. i was getting closer and closer to my goal. it was really the best feeling ever. then friday night comes along and... well... i went insane.
i really hate everything.
oh and i think i need my tonsils removed. that should eaily get me out of like a week of eating, right? whew. |
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| WAZZA MOFUCKA |
[Apr. 28th, 2007|10:28 am] |
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so i really just made this for the forums.
but perhaps i'll occasionally waste your time with pointless thoughts or whatnot.
k go fuck yourself. |
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